breakdown

I almost had a breakdown this night. I actually lost my 'cool' again, which I try not to happen these days.

Actually, the stress started this Monday. Then one thing happened over another, until it went to overload tonight.

My patience ran out, my anger was seething... enough is enough!

I'm tired of these people. I'm tired of adjusting to them. I'm tired of relying on them, 'cause frankly, they are U N R E L I A B L E. They are inconsiderate... and I hate them for taking me for granted!

It's over! Don't drive me over the edge! The anger this night... if I were with you in person instead of over the phone... I could have choke you to death. That's how angry I was tonight!

And I'm not gonna say 'clean up your act or else'. I've been saying that maybe two or three times already in this blog... you can see it if you backtrack posts.

No!

Instead, I'm gonna decide everything by tomorrow. If I still find you people this pathetic, then magsarili na tayo! So much for being called a THESIS GROUP!

Wake up boneheads! This thesis is already TWO FUCKING YEARS IN THE MAKING! What are you waiting for? A slap in the face!?

And maybe I'm the most pathetic of us all. Pathetic for putting up with you guys after all this time.

But not anymore. NOT ANYMORE.

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And through this shitty week, I want to say thanks to these two people: Che and Maki.

Che connected via email yesterday. Malaki ang naitulong sa pagbawas ng stress ko.

When I lost my cool this night, Mark was there to offer me a phone conversation... just to listen to my problem. Malaking bagay ito.

This is the reason why I tout them as my truest friends, along with the rest of the barkada (Bakal). They never fail to help, one way or another.

I appreciate the advices you both gave. Thank you very much.




But then again, I'm STILL angry and frustrated.

So to the pathetic people, watch out.