director's cut

here's another great song, this time from Kamikazee.. Director's Cut.

Director's Cut
Kamikazee

Pagmulat ng mata
Agad kong naalala
Kagabi sinabi mong ayaw mo na
May mali ka bang nakita?
May mali bang nagawa?
Bigla na lang naisip mong ayaw mo na...

Lahat ng gusto mo
Tamang sunod ako
Nagtataka bakit biglang ayaw mo na
Nabigla ko ng lubusan
Nang ako iyong aking iwanan
Basta na lang naisip mong ayaw mo na...

Lumingon sandali lang
Bago mo tuluyang iwan
Nais kong

Sumigaw, palabas
At sasabihin sayo ang lahat
Tumakbo, palayo
At iiwanan na ang alaala mo

Nanginginig, nalulungkot, nahihibang, at tulala
Pagod na yata ang ngiti
Nauubos din ang tuwa
Nag-iisa, umiiyak, nahihirapang huminga
Pagod na yata ang ngiti
Nauubos din ang tuwa
Nanginginig nalulungkot

Lumingon sandali lang
Bago mo tuluyang iwan
Nais kong

Sumigaw, palabas
At sasabihin sayo ang lahat
Tumakbo, palayo
At iiwanan na ang alaala mo

At kung hindi na babalik
Sana sa pag-gising ay wala na ang nadaramang sakit
At kung hindi na babalik
Pilit sasabihin na hindi ako nagkamali

Sumigaw, palabas
At sasabihin sayo ang lahat
Tumakbo, palayo
At iiwanan na ang alaala mo

Sumigaw, palabas
At iiwanan na ang alaala mo
Tumakbo, palayo
At iiwanan na ang alaala mo

i wonder why they haven't made a single out of this yet. this sure beats the living hell out of 'Martyr Nyebera'! i like the lyrics of this song.. sounds kinda deep, at least for me.. and the guitar riffs and drum beats are great! the line: "tumakbo, palayo at iiwanan na ang alaala mo" is my favorite. i really want to run away from all of my problems right now. parang gusto kong pumunta sa sobrang tahimik na lugar at isigaw lahat ng nasa loob ko.. sumigaw hanggang mamaos ako.. hanggang hindi ko na kaya. :(

runaway!

im so frustrated. problem here, problem there. i don't want to think so much right now. it seems that when i think 'bout all the bruhaha thats happening to me right now, it'll come up and eat me whole. i hate to think of all the people that im hating right now. it's not right. i don't want to hate them.. it's all just because of the circumstances, that im hating them. then when i think about other problems, it seems like it all stacks up altogether on my back.. and im starting to break down with all that weight that's stacking up. ayoko na talaga. shit.

for the mean time, here's a nice song from Hale that i can totally relate to right now. i want to run away from everything. for some reasons, im so down tonight. :(

Runaway

I talked to you tonight
To sort things out the right
Way that we used to be
When you were still here with me

I wanted you to know
If you have loved me so
Then why didn't you let me know
Coz I didn't want to let you go

So why don't you just run away from here
Coz I don't want you to get hurt
By me this way
You loved me to the point where I was lost
And that I couldn't catch you there
Right there

So just runaway
Runaway from here
Won't you runaway
Runaway from here

And I will never know
If we could ever go
The way that we should be
The way that we should be

So why don't you just runaway from here
Coz I don't want you to get hurt
By me this way
You loved me to the point where I was lost
And that I couldn't catch you there
Right there

So just runaway
Runaway from here
Won't you runaway
Runaway from here

Won't you runaway
Runaway from here
Won't you runaway
(Won't you run far away from me)
Runaway from here
Won't you runaway
(Won't you run, won't you run far away from me)
Runaway from here
Won't you runaway
(Won't you run far away from me)
Runaway from here

love you

yesterday, i had a chance to visit a special someone. after i drove my sister to the subdivision gate, i went and visit my friend. my best friend. i talked to him oh so dearly, oh so sweetly like i have done so over the past. i was so happy. we talked deeply like we used to, just like old times. i talked about things that i couldn't tell other people and i feel so relieved. i confided about all my frustrations right now. all the things that's been eating me up, and most of all, i asked for guidance. i miss him. i haven't been in his presence for a long long time now until yesterday... when i went to church. :)

haay.. pagod!

grabe, wala pa akong tulog! kung meron man, less than 2 hours. for the last 2 days kasi, i'm staying in Richard's (Evangelista) house because we're trying to beat a deadline for a project due this saturday. as in ang sakit na ng ulo ko!! tapos kahapon lang ako nakauwi ng bahay ulit pero saglit lang kasi i just went just to get new clothes! when i laid down on my bed, shiet!!!, there's no place like home! parang ayoko na bumangon! haha.

im currently in the UST library, writing this blog entry. ang sakit na ng ulo ko! im just trying to pass time until my next subject at 4pm. i'll try to catch some sleep after this internet session.


in other news, my left wrist still hurts like hell!!! ang tagal na nito at hindi pa rin mawala wala. this injury is hindering my long overdued return to the gym!! im getting frustrated.

in other other news, i recieved an email from my mom who's currently in Malaysia right now. she's there for a meeting. anyway, here's the mail (shinare pa ba raw! haha):

Hi Trin,Nino at pipiw, How are you both doing? Di ko naririnig si nino.> nabayaran na ba celphone niya?

Ok naman dito. Sa Penang masyadong busy ako.> Dumating ako ng madaling araw at umalis din na 5am.> Tapos puro meeting in-between.ang pasyal namin imbis> na makita ang town dinala kami sa bundok para makita> ang fruit trees, at butterfly museum. Dito sa KL,> binisita ko ang members ng seapavaa. Try ko ang> train> nila parang lrt nila. Sa awa ng diyos di ako nawala.> ngayon lang ako medyo free . Trin no promises. pero> and sabi sa akin ang magandang digi camera e Sony> pero> more tham 500 malaysian ringgit ( ~P 10,000 )marami> akong gastos.Yuong Zara sasadyain ito. dyan ka na> lng> tumingin. Kahit naman meron dito at mura baka kung> bilin ko di mo gusto ang taste ko.> > Dito sa room ko me computer at libre ang internet!> > Kamusta si papa? pabasa mo sa kanya itong letter> ko.> > love you.....

in case you don't know.. im known as Nino at home. hehe. well, i miss my mom too.. you know, her nagging ways! haha.. nah, just kidding. =p

do i look like a girl?!

grabe na 'to. since first year college.. whenever my hair reaches a certain length, some people mistake me for a girl!! most of these people are from restaurants/fast foods, shops, and security guards. like for example, when i step inside a store, the guard would open the door and say "Welcome ma'am.. ay.. sir!" nakakainis!! then just recently, last wednesday, i ate in a restaurant then yung girl sa counter: "yes, ma'am? ay.. sir pala... hihihihi!" natawa nalang ako kasi ang tagal na nung huli akong napagkamalang babae sa unang tingin! hehe.

well, i guess now is the right time to get a hair cut! =p

ICON Week

last week was ICON week... and it was a busy and tiring week! ICON is the only organization in the ICS department, and every year they have this week where they make all this activities for the students of ICS. this year, they had the beauty pageant, a quizbee, a nihonggo class (which, sadly, i missed), and the traditional variety show! compared to the past ICON, this year's is probably the most productive.

so why was it busy and tiring? dami kasing nangyari.. the week started out slow. halos walang ginawa nung tuesday.. nung wednesday, halos wala rin. i just attended my classes and discussed about the SE project. thursday came, and it all started! thursday was thesis day so we were supposed to meet up. eh napuyat si Dom nung nakaraang gabi, she slept nalang sa library. i just told her to go home nalang so she could rest, and besides, it's her brother's birthday. kami naman ni Erick, we talked about thesis for a bit. we decided to have an overnight this day kasi kailangan na talaga mag brainstorm para sa thesis. ayun, after blabbering about, we decided to go to Quiapo! tumingin kami ng mga DVDs!! haha. so yun, nakabili ako ng LOST. i bought it for my dad kasi lagi nalang dito sa house kaya para hindi naman mabato. when i got home, pinakita ko kay papa yung DVD.. bigla ba naman nagyaya manuod!! so yun, eh napaka gripping and suspenseful yung story ng LOST, nawili tuloy kami! tuloy tuloy yung panunuod namin!! hanggang naka 5 episodes kami, eh dumating na si Erick ng mga 10pm! si Dom naman wala pa! medyo nahihilo na nga ako kasi napasubo ako kay papa na manuod ng DVD. tapos dumating na si Dom ng mga around 12am na!! medyo masakit na talaga yung ulo ko pero hindi ko nalang pinaalam sa kanila! eh may quiz pa ako sa COBOL kinabukasan, AND may nihonggo class pa nga sana ako na gusto ko pasukan! grabe, as in hexxed na talaga ako! then nag text yung friend ko from 4IT!!! may practice raw nung sayaw namin tom, 8am!!!! hindi naman ako maka hindi kasi nauna na yung commitment ko dun kaysa sa nihonggo class.. and hindi ako maka back out kasi by partners yun! eh swing yung dance kaya medyo kailangan talaga malaman yung steps, nag oblige na ako. haaay!!

so yun, brainstorm na kami para sa thesis ng mga madaling umaga! umabot hanggang 5am yun so wala na talaga tulugan. mga 5:30am, hinatid ko na si Dom sa kanila.. eh since mag 6am na, sumabay na rin kami kay papasok ng school since may 8am appointment practice ako. WALANG TULUGAN talaga, as in!!! when i got there, takte, late pa yung mga tao dun! so nag aral na muna ako ng COBOL. then nagdatingan na, ayun, we practiced the dance. my partner was kathleen, my classmate from 4IT. buti nalang at malaki ang pasensya niya at tinuruan niya pa rin ako kahit medyo slow ako. yung theme kasi namin eh yung HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL. the only reason i participated in this year's show was because i need the incentives. i need grades!! haha. then yun, nag quiz na sa cobol.. then kumain ako.. then class.. then practice uli sa sayaw! hanggang natapos na nung mga 9pm na! then on my way home, grabe, yung paningin ko talaga iba na.. pagdating sa bahay tulog kaagad ako eh! then pag gising ko, saturday morning na.. naku, may practice ulit!!

so yun, time na for the show. i think we did ok naman! even na hindi masyado nakapagpractice masyado, ok pa rin! :) nung nasa stage ako, parang hindi ko makita yung mga audience. pero ok naman at hindi ako kinabahan! haha! dun lang ako nag suklay ng buhok after a very long time! baka makitaan kasi ako ng tikwas eh! hahaha! so, it came and passed. natapos na yung show ng around 9pm na! sayang talaga at third place lang kami! ok talaga yung 2nd year kasi maganda talaga yung presentation nila, GREASE ba naman yung theme nila eh. pero yung hindi ko maintindihan eh kung paano nag 2nd yung mga freshmen! no offense pero hindi naman sila ganon kaganda and sa overtime offenses nila, dapat nag negative na yung score nila!! no offense pero that's how i see it! kami kasi nagputol pa ng mga scenes para lang wala kaming time offense eh, tapos sila halos isang oras sa kanila, naubos lang yung oras sa kaka-sound check! o diba!? eh kung alam namin na hindi naman pala masusunod yung time rule eh di sana ang dami namin nasingit! kainis. pero that's life. hehe. ok lang, as long as we tried our best! :)