this week's overview

*I find myself madly "in crush" with Eva Green after falling in love with her in 'Casino Royale'. I've watched her in 'The Dreamers' recently and I've just fallen deeper! Haha.

*Medyo I'm more 'OK' now, more than last week. At least our problems are getting a bit of a resolution of sorts.

*As usual, thesis woes. We're still very busy regarding with that one.

*Studying harder. Physics, OR, SRM, Ethics, Automata... lahat kayo teypok!

*Gym mode. I haven' missed a gym session except yesterday.

*I went to the gym earlier this day and much to my surprise, Stan and Arjay was there! That was a pleasant surpise since I haven't seen either of them for such a long time now! At least now, I have more gym mates... si Jayson lang kasi yung palagi kong kasama! Hehe.

*Classes were suspended today because of a supposed super typhoon. Much to my surprise, I never saw even one drop of rain today.

*I'm contemplating of buying that Kobe Bryant Team USA jersey. Haha.

*I'm sorry to everyone na 'nagtampo' sa akin because of my self-imposed hibernation. Sorry guys, medyo down lang kasi ako sa mga problema. I'll make it up to you guys. :)

Eva Green

OMG, the moment she appeared on her first scene in the new Bond flick, 'Casino Royale', I was M-E-S-M-E-R-I-Z-E-D!!! She is just so irresistably gorgeous! Everytime she shows up on screen, she almost always steal the scene! She reminds me of a younger Monica Belluci, another au natural beauty.

According to Wikipedia, Eva Green was born July 5, 1980. She was born in Paris, France to a French mother and a Swedish father. She has a fraternal twin (non-identical). She studied acting in Paris for three years. She speaks French and English fluently and shares her time between Paris and London. Besides memorably playing Vesper Lynd in 'Casino Royale', she has starred in past films: 'Arsene Lupin', 'Kingdom of Heaven', and 'The Dreamers' (which I'm buying a DVD of, by the way). She will next appear in 'His Dark Materials: Northern Lights', along side Daniel Craig (again!) and Nicole Kidman.

Grabe, crush na crush ko talaga siya ngayon! As in sobrang ganda at galing niya sa 'Casino Royale'! As Vesper Lynd, she looked so smart and gorgeous! She looked so sophisticated! Major turn on talaga!!! If only I could be James Bond! Haaaay! Haha! Enjoy some of her pics:

Ssssswwwwiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiisssssh!!! Heard that?! That was the sound of my underwear falling off at the sight of Eva Green! Haha!

I completely, honestly adore Eva Green!

Casino Royale

I'm so stressed out because of all the recent problems so I decided to see a movie today to unwind. I also went out to watch para maipasyal ko na rin si Kuya Victor, a cousin of mine who recently returned to Manila. We decided to watch the new Bond flick, 'Casino Royale'.

Pirece Brosnan is no longer James Bond so when they announced a new Bond in the form of Daniel Craig, I was worried! What the hell would make James Bond as blonde?! I was furious, almost humored. That was before, mind you. After seeing the movie, all I can say is... WOW! Craig has brought justice to Bond. If this wasn't a Bond film, he should be nominated for an Oscar! Craig's take on agent 007 is more humane than his predecessors. It's more realistic. It's also nice that the producers are aiming to make Bond more three dimensional as opposed to the traditional, suave martini drinking 007 agent we all know. In this movie, they depict Bond as a 'human' being... capable of emotions and mistakes. You can see Bond all bruised up and bloodied, and it makes it much much more believable. Kudos to Daniel Craig and the rest of the crew!

Besides Craig's superb performance as James Blonde.. err.. James Bond.. the movie also features the VERY beautiful (and currently my celebrity crush) Eva Green as Vesper Lynd, the only woman whom James Bond has loved. One piece of trivia: 'Casino Royale' is the very first Bond novel that Ian Fleming has ever written. So in reality, this film is sorta like a prequel to the Bond films of before. Call it more like breathing new life/take on the Bond saga.

Overall, this film is superb as it is realistic as agent 007 is portrayed as three dimensional. The Bond franchise is in good hands if they continue this new take on making Bond films! Watch out for the separate blog entry for Eva Green (aka Vesper Lynd)! Ganda niya sobra, mahal ko na siya! Haha!

Blonde, James Blonde! Craig's Bond is buffier and grizzlier. He's more reminiscent of Sean Connery (my fave Bond of all time) rather than the Roger Moore, Timothy Dalton, and Pierce Brosnan -ish type of Bond.

Bond with her lady love, Vesper Lynd (played by Eva Green).

this is hell

This is hell... Thissis Hell... Thisis Hell... Well, you get the fucking idea, right?! Again, I repeat: I won't elaborate much on this blog site. All I can say is that there's some big, fucked up dillema right now. Last week, up until now, is a rollercoaster of emotions. Last friday, I even broke down because of our problem. It was the first time I cried in front of some of my friends. I broke down completely! I even skipped the much anticipated get together last Saturday because the problem was already eating me. Instead I went to Medical City to visit my good friend Richard who was confined there. Together with Verge and his girlfriend Karen, we stayed there 'till about 12. We then went to Libis to eat. When I got up Sunday morning, I was already okay. This is a problem, and I will find a solution.

But even all this, the scar has already been done. And it's a painful reminder of losing trust. It's comparable to that of a cadet losing trust and respect for his superior. Yes, I feel betrayed. I lost respect for people whom I thought were respectable. They certainly proved me wrong about them. One of them, I even considered as a friend. That was the painful part.

Besides all this, in turn, I gained respect for one woman. Someone who I used to laugh at at times a year ago. Instead, she turned out to be a woman of great character and strength. Someone with a strong sense of justice. Someone who will defend the weak. In short, someone genuinely respectable. During these few days of talking to her, I learned a lot more than my whole stay in UST. Fuck programming and lessons, what I've learned from her is more valuable than all that. I gained new insights. She has certainly instilled strength to our hearts and minds. God bless her.

Another 'newly-found mentor' told me this quote and I will forever remember it: "If a student doesn't learn in the way the teacher teaches, the teacher must teach in a way that the students can learn."

Another thing I discovered about me because of all this problems is that... I'm not so nice after all. Watch your back. This is certainly a different Fil Capul from now on.

pacquiao victorious!

Pacquiao rules! After two fights with both fighters winning one a piece, now comes the deciding bout! It's Manny "Pacman" Pacquiao- Erik "El Terrible" Morales III! And it was a good fight but in the end, there was only one man standing... Manny Pacquiao! Even before the fight, Erik Morales had problems with his weight and he was purportedly having trouble with his weight production program. Pacquiao, on the other hand, was fit as a beast! Months before this battle, Morales ballooned to almost 160 lbs of weight! And as the weight in came near, Morales was forcing himself to lose weight to be able to reach 130 lbs. As any boxing mark would know, weight reducing should not be rushed and proper strength training is required to go with it to be able to retain strength! In short, it needs time... a factor that Morales lacked. El Terrible was able to make the weight by fight time but since he "forced" himself on losing weight, he suffered his loss of strength and endurance (just by looking at him, you might mistake him for an anorexic!)... and it clearly showed in battle. The battle never made it past the third round as Pacquiao demolished Morales by two knockdowns before eventually incapacitating his foe by the third.

I was not surprised by Pacquiao winning the bout. With Morales' problems with his weight reduction, I knew he wouldn't last long inside the squared circle with the Pacman. What surprised me, however, was the way Morales fought! Gone were his defensive stances and fierce counter-attacks. Instead, he decided to slug it out with Pacquiao... which I think he really isn't that stupid enough to do! Morales knows Pacquiao's punching power and that going toe to toe with him is like suicide! But he did! And by the third round, he's there sitting on the floor refusing to get up before the 10 count.

By opting to go "brawling" with Pacquiao, instead of his usual "smart" boxing, I think Morales knew he had no chance in hell winning the battle so he opted to just slug it out with Pacquiao to finish the bout faster. By the second time Morales dropped to the floor, naawa na ako. Parang napasubo nalang siya sa laban na alam niyang hindi niya kaya ipanalo. By the third knockdown, I was relieved that the fight was over. Pacquiao is the better fighter today with the best conditioning and with the better punches!

But despite the loss, Morales is already a hall of famer and he should be proud of what he has accomplished. As for Pacquiao, he has brighter things ahead for him! Barrera should start training now if he only knew what the Pacman will bring to him when they face in the ring! Congrats, Manny!

Pacquiao's Entourage

Morales' Entourage

Morales: After it's all over and done

Pacman victorious!

the spot - baron geisler?!

Because of my grief this day (read previous post), when I got home, I worked my ass off again on THESIS hoping for some miracle to happen. I finally got fcked off so I stopped! I decided to take the car and just stroll around the subdivision. I then went to that place here in Filinvest 2 that's called, 'The Spot'. It's actually just an overlooking part of the subdivision which attained popularity and cult status for reasons I do not know (people I know both living and NOT living in Filinvest 2 are knows about it)!

Anyways, I parked my car there just to admire the overlooking view and just pass time...sobrang bad trip ko kasi talaga. After a while, two teenagers arrived riding a scooter. They seem to be tuning/fixing the scooter or whatever, so hindi ko sila pinansin. Then after a while, nagulat ako... lumiliyab ng apoy yung scooter! Surprised, I went quickly to them! "Anong nangyari?!", I said. "Kuya, pahingi ng tuuuubiiiiig!!!", said one of the guys! I quickly ran back to my car and thank god may spare na tubig! There were two 1.5 liters bottle of water in the car so I handed one to the other kid while I also helped douse the fire with the other bottle! Buti nalang at naagapan! Umabot kasi sa point na akala ko sasabog na yung scooter kasi malakas na yung apoy eh! Haha! Thank God we're able to douse the fire!

Then right after, some of their friends came! Parang nagulat din kasi nakita niyang nasusunog na yung scooter! Paglapit ba naman nila, sabi nung isa: "Baron Geisler!?!?", referring to me! Akala ata at ako yung nagsimula ng sunog thinking I was Geisler! Hahaha! Mukhang masama na talaga yung reputation ni Baron Geisler sa The Spot! Akala ata nung isang guy na sinunog ni Baron Geisler yung scooter! Hahaha! I just went back to my car while the two guys whom I helped, explained to their friend what happened. The two guys went towards my car, asked for my name and gave thanks for helping them. That was a kind gesture. They then went home.

What was funny was the Baron Geisler remark! Hahaha! I couldn't get over it for a couple of hours! I kept laughing everytime I remembered it! Hehe. It's because I know someone who was ALSO harassed by Baron Geisler while she was there with her boyfriend a long time ago! It seems a drunk Geisler went over to their car and started talking gibberrish to them and making remarks with the extent of something like: "Pare, ang ganda ng girlfriend mo ah.. Pwede mo bang pababain para makita ko?!" Hahahaha! Baron Geisler, "The Spot Terrorizer!" HAHAHA! Sa tono talaga nung isang lalake kanina, "Baron Geisler?!?!?!" Parang takot na takot na may gulong nangyari eh! Haha! Mukhang kilala na talaga si Geisler sa The Spot na nanggugulo! Too bad but Geisler's house burnt down months ago as I saw in the news! Hindi na siguro siya tumatambay sa The Spot! Haha! Ano kaya at kung ako nalang ang pumalit sa kanya na terrorizer!?! Now then, when something bad happens there, people will say..."FIL?!?!?!?!" HAHAHAHAHA!

Geisler, the terror of The Spot!

saddest week in college life

This week is supposed to be joyous for me being that its my birth day this last November 14. Instead, it turned out to be the exact opposite. This is by far the saddest part in both my academic and college life. I won't elaborate much on this but this is the first time that my tears fell because of anxiety, grief, stress, hunger, frustrations, anger, and fright. Yes, it's a roller coaster of emotions and once I recover, I won't play nice anymore. Mark my word. Next time, I won't be the one with the tears falling.

november 14

Another birthday has come and gone. I turned 23 yesterday, november 14. So, how was the day? It was just normal. Nothing special, really. It was just one hot day. Sobrang init! Wheew! Haha. My dad was the first to greet me personally. On text, it was Dominique who was first to greet! :) The day started with me driving my sister to the gate. Then, took a bath and went to school. All throughout the day, messages of greetings arrived on my phone and I cringe every moment it did. Hindi kasi ako makareply because disconnected pa yung line ko sa cellphone! Haha. During my breaktime, I went to the library to sleep. After that, I went to church to offer my thanks giving to God Almighty. I then went to class only to find out that Ma'am Mich was not in. It turned out, she left a seat work to answer. I answered it with Dom, then I went home. At home, I slept until my sister got home with the food. Then we had a simple dinner with our dad with some chinese food and crispy pata. This is the first time that my mom is not around for my birthday. She's still in Australia for her meeting. I talked to her on the phone later that night, though. Pretty normal day, huh? Hehe.

I just wanna thank all those friends and love ones who greeted me on my birthday. Thank you all! I appreciate the greetings! And for those who DIDN'T, it's ok. I'm lying low so it's ok if you didn't remember my birthday...sob! :( Haha. It just shows how close we are!!! ;p Kidding!

shoutouts:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MARK RODRIGUEZ, my soul brother! Matanda nanaman tayo ng isang taon pare! Haha!

Get well soon, Richard Villareal! Men, you have to start taking care of yourself! This is like the nth time you've been confined in the hospital! Get well soon! Godbless.

Again, thank you to all who greeted me! Thanks! :)

nearly 23 - birthday wish list

I just remembered that my 23rd birthday is fast approaching. I can't believe I'm still alive right now... after all that happened to me when I was younger! Gawd! Haha! Now, almost half of my friends are making parinig about blowouts and all... Well, sorry guys but I'm broke right now! Haha! Seriously, I'll treat you all when I get money na... I kinda feel bad for being a bum up until now and ask my folks for money! Haha! Anyways, since only a few gets to visit this really secluded blogsite of mine, I'm gonna list the things that I want for my birthday. In short, a wish list! (it would'nt hurt if someone actually gives these things to me!!! haha!):

Fil's Birthday Wish List:

1. Apple iPod (i hope someone gives me this as a gift! right, true friend? cough cough Dom! cough! haha!)

2. Cheap Running Shoes (not shoes that run! shoes for running! i'm gonna jog my ass around UST one last time this semester! :p)

3. Money!!! (i need money to buy new clothes! look, i'm already out of fashion! haha! i would've asked for clothes here pero baka hindi ko type yung ibigay! haha!)

4. Travel (i've been dying to travel for years now! and maybe i'll actually get to leave for Bangkok at the end of the month! *crosses fingers!*)

5. A concrete and stable thesis proposal (now this, i really need!)

6. Money (hey, did i say that already? well, lemme say it again! money! haha!)

7. Malice Mizer Live Concert DVDs (i can't find this in Quiapo or anywhere in the Philippines! maybe on the internet... if only i had a fast connection! ;p)

8. Car radio (ayos na nga yung aircon at fan belt, wala namang radyo! samahan na rin ng side mirror! nahulog yung side mirror sa kanan eh! hahaha!)

9. Cheap PS2 Controllers (almost 1 year na akong hindi nakakalaro kasi i don't have a controller! sira na lahat! huhuhu!)

10. A Big Party (yes, lastly a big party for all of my friends! miss ko na kasi silang lahat! if only i had money, i would throw a big party so i can be with them again even for just a short time!)

Yay! I'm no longer a kid... I guess I'm pretty old now!!! :( Haha!

dreams

Dreams not as in the moments you see when you're asleep, but dreams as in ambition. Have you ever thought up what's your dream in life is? People ask me that a lot these recent times, most specially my mom. "What is my ambition?" "What do i want to do?" Do i want to go to some company and work my ass 9-5 daily? Hell no! So what is? And then it hit me... It occured to me that i've always wanted to travel the world! Yes, I want to go! Go out to see places I've never been to! Wouldn't it be nice to roam the towns in Europe just carrying a backpack and sleeping in hostels? Or surf the beaches of the bahamas? Or trek the forests of the himalayas... I want to see the different cultures around the world... I dont want to be confined in just ours!

I feel like im so binded in this current state of mine and I feel suffocated. I want to break free! I'm not getting any younger, and already I can feel my mortality. I know I'm to blame for my current state... You know, still studying when i should be working now. I know I messed up college.. I never took it too seriously. I always felt like i'm just obligated to finish schooling just for the contentment of my parents... I never felt like I need to finish it for my own fulfillment and satisfaction. That's the sad part! If I had just been that serious in college, I would've graduated by now... and probably, JUST probably, I'm already out of this country roaming the streets of another.

Recently, I told Rix about my dream. She found it funny. Even if her reaction was just a joke, or just a friendly remark-- Still, she found it funny. He he. well I don't blame her. It really does sound funny to others... You know, telling them that you want to travel the world then come back home years later just to retire 'cause you're too old to travel anymore, or because you've realized that there's no place like home. Yeah, it looks funny even to me that I'm writing about it now. Just imagine, why the hell did I study programming when I would just waste my time later by travelling... Or where the hell will I get the money to travel if I don't even have a job... Or what would I eat or where do I leave when I'm out there somewhere in the world... Yeah, it is funny, this dream of mine. :(

It made me realize that I've got a long way to go on achieving my dreams. Time is ticking and there's no more time to waste. My 23rd november has come and I'm not getting any younger! I've taken a long detour in college and now i've got to pick up myself. Finish this god-damn thesis and get the hell out of college. Get a job or two, save a few bucks here and there... And when i've enough dough, then i'll definitely consider the option of leaving. Just one oppurtunity! God, just one oppurtunity! Get out of here... far, far from here.

It's kinda funny that I don't even consider the thoughts of marrying and settling down. Even as a kid, I don't remember if I even dreamt of having a family and settling down. when I was a kid, I've dreamt of becoming a scientist... a writer... a lawyer... hell, even a boxer (but that's just because I wanted to knock the tooth out of one of my classmate back in 2nd grade!)... but to marry? I don't think I've ever dreamt of that. Maybe I did but I can't remember. Then again, maybe I'm just one of those restless souls that doesn't want to be contained. On the contrary, maybe because I just haven't met someone yet who I think I can settle down with... Who knows? Maybe I'll just let destiny unfold for me... That way it'll be more exciting! Who knows, maybe I'll get to meet someone out there somewhere during my travels! Ha Ha.. Kinda makes me want to listen to songs like "Somewhere Out There" and "Moon River". Ha Ha! Yeah... who knows? :)

Below are some of my past travels outside the country. The first pic was from Ocean Park, Hong Kong with my sister; The 2nd pic is also taken from Hong Kong... Planet Hollywood; The 3rd and 4th pic is taken from Vietnam, during a boat trip/island hopping there with my mom. All these were during my HS freshman year! GAWD!! It's been too long now!!! I have to travel!!! PLEASE!!! Ha ha! :)

THE PRESTIGE

I was too burnt from thesis work so I decided to have a break. Earlier today, I went to SM North to check out the new section of the mall, The Block. I have to say that it kinda had the feel of SM Mall of Asia with it. Later that day, I watched The Prestige. A new movie by Christopher Nolan starring Hugh Jackman and Christian Bale... And wow! It's been a while since I've watched a really good movie! This is so far the best movie that came out this year , with the exception of The Departed, which I have yet to watch due to the 'errr-ness' of my THESIS priorities. Great, great movie overall!

So what's The Prestige all about? Well, it's hard to write a review without giving too much of the plot. Let me just say that its about the rivalry of two magicians, Borden and Angier (played by Christian Bale and Hugh Jackman, respectively), during the Victorian era in London. The rivalry was kicked off by a tragedy in a show in which Angier's wife was killed because of Borden's malpractice. I'll stop right there. The film show how much hatred and obsession can end up badly, even fatally.

More so than a review, I posted this so that people who get to read my blogsite can get the main idea that they NEED TO WATCH THIS FILM! I swear, this is definitely the best movie I've watched in recent years (did is say that already?). The plot is good (although short of character development in the beginning, as well as some unbelievable things during the course of the movie). The acting is good-- the main stars were intense, as well as the supporting. The directing? Superb! After 'Memento' and 'Batman Returns', I can't imagine director Christopher Nolan can ever make a bad movie! I'm just excited on what he can do on the next Batman movie, 'The Dark Knight'!

And lastly, DON'T FORGET TO WATCH THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And make sure that "You're watching closely".

Borden and Angier (Christian "Batman" Bale and Hugh "Wolverine" Jackman, respectively)

sleepless

it 2am in the morning and i still can't sleep. i should've jog earlier this day (or rather, yesterday) para sakaling mapagod ako at makatulog na ngayon. instead, i ended up being a couch potato and finished the remaining episodes of Princess Hours (also known as Goong), a korean tv series. the series was great pero badtrip kasi sira yung episode 23 ko. sayang, yun pa naman yung episode na may infamous 'hot kiss' na sinasabi ni Kristine. haha. anyways, i still enjoyed it. i might still be buying another version kasi hindi ko nasundan yung story ng episode 23. hehe. anywho, im off to bed.. i'll try to make my ass fall asleep. nyt (morning) everyone! :)

--one more sudden realization while talking to Kristine is the THESIS problem. it seems im the only one working this semestral break. si Dom nasiraan ng pc.. si Erick naman wala akong balita.. sana naman ganahan na.. pls lord. :(